Not Another Recvory Success Story (Or Is it?)

"There are five events in my life, when, the moment they happened, I knew it would never be the same. The day my family moved from Illinois to Wisconsin in 1987, the day my first love took her own life, the day Nine Inch Nails released The Downward Spiral, the day my father died, and the day I took my first drink. Of all of them, the first drink has been the most profound, the most life-altering, the most devastating. It’s hard to fathom anything more soul-crushingly horrific than suicide, or the unexpected death of a man you’d grown accustomed to calling your hero, but for me, personally, alcohol has easily been the most ravaging, the most merciless, the most destructive of all of them. I actually have a song about alcohol called ‘Stronger Than God.’ More on that later…

 

Alcoholism, for me, can be described in one sentence. It was the unintentional abandonment of my own humanity. There’s much more to it than that, but in hindsight, I know now that that is exactly what happened to me. I just had no idea how or why it was happening, or that it was even happening at all…until what should have been the end. My end."